As I sit to write this birth account, I tear up a little,
looking down at my sweet son fast asleep on my chest secured by the his Moby
wrap. It was just a few short weeks ago
that he lay in that same closeness inside my womb in no hurry to ever leave that
wonderful place… but I’m so glad he changed his mind on Saturday April 13, 2013
Random contractions began on Monday- I was 4 days
overdue. I coincidently had a doctor’s
appointment that morning. I felt
fortunate to actually be experiencing something while at the office. A strong contraction had me pressed to the
wall in the elevator. Maybe after all
this waiting, today would be the day?
Ultrasound showed plenty of fluid and a happy baby. Dr. said she wanted a non-stress test done
but hopefully she would see me sooner, although I was still dilated to 1cm. Before I left she said “oh there was one
thing I wanted to review about your birth plan.” We discussed my wishes regarding an emergency
C-section. I laughed it off, as did she,
in a professional way- thinking aloud that I wasn’t a likely candidate but you
just never know. Little did I know, I
would be so grateful we had that conversation.
Colton’s non-stress test was strong. I had a friend drive me to the hospital and
back seeing that my contractions were very uncomfortable and irregular. Colton performed well during contraction and
passed all the requirements of the test within three minutes of the 30 min
test. Show off.
Contractions continued over the week- ranging from 1 hour
apart to 15 min apart. Some were mild,
some were intense. I was surprised by
how good I felt in-between them. When I
pictured early labor, I thought I’d be handicapped. This was a pleasant surprise. It was more my depressed spirit and my
increasing fatigue that began to eat away at me. How long would my body contract for?
Friday April 12, at 12pm things started
getting real. I was actually able to time them. They lasted about 45-60 seconds long and were about 10-15 min apart. I took a total of 5 walks around the neighborhood in 7 hours. Anything to keep ‘em coming. Each walking pace got slower and slower. My parents had just opened a bottle of wine with dinner when I called them around 7pm. “I think you guys might as well make the drive,” I didn’t want them driving in a panic at 3am, better for us all to get some sleep before. I could hear dad pouring his recently poured glass back in the bottle “I guess we’ll cork it.” Ironic words, I can now smile about looking back.
getting real. I was actually able to time them. They lasted about 45-60 seconds long and were about 10-15 min apart. I took a total of 5 walks around the neighborhood in 7 hours. Anything to keep ‘em coming. Each walking pace got slower and slower. My parents had just opened a bottle of wine with dinner when I called them around 7pm. “I think you guys might as well make the drive,” I didn’t want them driving in a panic at 3am, better for us all to get some sleep before. I could hear dad pouring his recently poured glass back in the bottle “I guess we’ll cork it.” Ironic words, I can now smile about looking back.
I hated laboring at night.
I would sleep between contractions but then hop out of bed to lean over
and sway holding my pillow to pass them.
My husband had been timing the contractions, but we decided that if they
got close enough together, I would not be nodding off.
I had had several friends tell me how thirsty they were
after they checked into the hospital and this particular labor and delivery
aloud no food/drink- only ice chips.
Being the hydrator I am, I had been drinking ALL day and night, as if it
would be my last. This had me up using
the bathroom every 10 minutes as well.
No wonder I didn’t get any sleep that night.
By morning, my contractions were around 9 min apart. We decided to go about my “house list” while
I labored. Dad had requested a list of
things to do, assuming I would be at the hospital a while. So while I was in and out of the tub/on and off
the exercise ball, Chris and my dad were on the roof, fixing sprinklers,
planting in my garden and labeling the electrical box. The electrical box was hilarious- I would
yell out “timer” when a contraction started and whoever had their iPhone handy
and was near, timed the contraction. My
mother was cooking her heart out in the kitchen, preparing meals for the week
to come. Mind you, the electricity kept going on and off- hollering out which room.
At one point, the men crafted a bar table out of a pallet in
the back yard for our patio. Something I
had pinned excitingly on Pinterest, but in the current moment, I was not up for
giving an opinion on anything. I told
them “I trust your work. I just need to
get in the tub.” So while they drilled
and hammered away, I competed with the sounds as I low moaned through
contractions about 7 minutes apart.
After about 2 hours, and a bottle of Gatorade, I had an hour
worth of contractions 5 minutes apart lasting at least a minute long. It was go time. I remember Chris coming in laughing saying
“you’re not gonna believe what your father just asked me.” Dad had kindly offered to split his plate, as
he is often accustomed to doing, with me- the girl in the tub, yelling, hardly
holding down Gatorade. Bless his
heart. No time for dinner, Dad, it was time
to get to the hospital.
My biggest fear was Labor and Delivery sending us away
because I hadn’t dilated enough. I had
worked too hard and WAY too long for that.
The 5 min contractions supposedly gave me a good shot at being at least
at 3cm. It was about 6pm and I was so
tired, I could hardly stand up straight.
The contractions were coming on strong and steady. The nurse checked me and I was at 4 cm. Praise God.
We were staying. Dad kissed me good-bye,
heading home to do more chores while I labored away. Mom and Chris were going to be there for the
birth.
My nurse, Kendal was a gem from the beginning. We walked to our room. After getting settled, requesting a birthing
ball, and enduring a few contractions Kendal asked that I stay on the table for
a bit as Colton’s heart rate had just dropped.
They gave me oxygen and I had to lay uncomfortably on my back while he
recovered. My hands hurt from squeezing
through contractions. Colton seemed
fine, so they “let me off leash” and let me do as I please. Kendal even offered me juice?! JUICE?
I had be warned there would be no such thing. What a God send! I shut right up and said “yes, cranberry” the
closest to a (virgin) cocktail I could get. Ha, what a day I had had. The
contractions were about 3-4 minutes apart; I was trying to stay focused.
Around 9pm they called my doctor. I was still at a 4, barely a 5. I was getting so tired. We decided to have her come and break my
water. This was quite uneventful, and
nothing like I had prepared for. My doc
seemed surprised to the lack of fluid as well.
She said Colton’s head was wedged down so tightly by the
contractions that there was hardly any fluid able to break through. She reported him to be like a cork in a
bottle. I immediately thought of telling
my parents I was pregnant at Sterling Vineyard, doing the gender reveal in an
Auburn tasting room and revealing his name on our anniversary in the Amador
wine country. Of course Colton was like
a cork. The kid was practically born in
a vineyard.
After the attempted water break, things got intense. As I breathed through the swells of
contractions, my mom’s eyes got big, watching the little meter go off the
charts. Were these “transition like”
contractions? 1-1 ½ minutes apart, long and hard, I didn’t know
any different. There was another slight
drop in heart rate and they put me back on the bed for monitoring. I began wondering how much more I could
handle. I had come this far without the
epidural. I had told myself that if I
decided to get it, it would not be out of fear, but out of fatigue. My doc and nurse were so complimentary, but I
didn’t feel as great as they reported me to be doing. Chris asked mom to leave the room. He grabbed my hands and told me he believed
in me and in whatever I decided that I needed.
He knew I was struggling. Kendal
checked me again, and I was still at a 5.
Unbelievable. It was around 10:30pm. I looked at Chris and told him I wanted to do
epidural. I felt a peace about it. Whatever peace looks like in that state, I
felt it. It was that peace that allowed
me to remain awake and aware of what would happen next.
Lucky for me, the anesthesiologist on duty that night was
apparently “a chatter.” Kendal assured
me it would just be another minute.
Every time she returned to my room, she got more set up for him, knowing
I was growing anxious. It seemed like an
eternity. How in the world was I
supposed to sit like this and contract every minute? Kendal told us that as soon as he came in to
get straight to business- no small talk, cause this guy was known for
that. Odd if you ask me- what laboring
woman wants to chit-chat? Sure enough,
as I was doubling over in pain he wanted to discuss my medical history, and do
so painfully slow. I remained a step
above rude, but far from classy. It was
11:20pm and too many contractions later.
Around 11:30pm I was just beginning to feel the edge of
relief. Kendal was at my side watching
the magnitude of the contractions. She
leaned over to my mother and said “in about 30 seconds, we’re going to have a
team of nurses enter the room.” So calm
and collected. I didn’t bat an eye at
this comment.
She wasn’t kidding.
Within seconds I was being contorted, moved, propped, probed, and
injected with God knows what to stop my contractions. With an oxygen mask on my face, I looked up
at my mother and Chris, who stood back in disbelief. “Kendal, what is going on?” She explained quickly that Colton’s heart
rate had dropped too low for too long and it was time to get him out. He was highly distressed due to the
contractions and was stuck, going nowhere fast.
The doors flung open, and they ran me down the hallway. I remember my mother saying “he’s gonna be
okay honey.” I couldn’t believe this was
happening to me, to us. I hadn’t planned on
this at all. And here I was, being ran
into walls, trying to get me to the OR as fast as possible. Chris had been thrown scrubs and my mom had
been left in the laboring room amidst the triage scene. She tried to be helpful by putting Chris’
hair net on him, to which he kindly corrected her with his shaking hands that
maybe the scrubs should go on first. Mom
called Dad who was back at home working on my “list” for him and told him he
needed to get down there fast.
Once in the OR, I couldn’t count the number of people who
had seemingly come out of nowhere who surrounded me for the game plan. I remember thinking if they pull all the
staff in here, who will deliver the other babies? There were a few deep breaths from my Dr. and
the surgical team. Apparently Colton’s
heart rate had recovered now that they had stopped the contractions. We had a few minutes to make some decisions. Chris came through the double doors dressed
like the rest of the staff from head to toe, shaking uncontrollably somehow
holding the camera. One of the nurses
took the camera from him and got him a chair.
I grabbed his face and told him I was fine. Poor guy, seemed half way relieved, but we
needed more information.
My doc explained that we could wait for the meds to wear off
and try to labor some more, but she couldn’t guarantee Colton’s safety and if
he dipped again, I would not have many options.
She recommended we be conservative and get him out pronto- as he, and my
uterus, were very tired.
I felt a peace again. Chris could not stop shaking. Ironically, I was shaking too, but not because of nerves but because of the medication. We wanted our little boy out healthy- no matter the means of it. I wasn’t going to think of my scar, the recovery, my next births- I just wanted to hear Colton’s voice. He had been through enough, as had I.
We gave her the word, and up went the curtain. Amazingly enough, because I had chosen the
epidural in those final moments before the chaos, they did not have to sedate
me, but simply increased the epidural for surgery. They honored my request to be hands free and
to be walked through verbally each moment of the C-section. There was some serious tugging and
pulling. Colton was out in three
minutes. His cry was piercingly
loud. Even the nurses tending to him
raised their eye brows- “this guy has some pipes.” The nurse handed Chris his camera back and
encouraged him to meet his son. Chris
brought him to me within minutes. His
quivering lip peeking out of his burrito wrapped body. I touched his face, he was precious.
My poor parents met him outside. They were relieved to hear I was safe and
Colton was out. The trauma still fresh
on their faces soon turned to joy.
In recovery, 15 minutes later, my 10cm incision was stitched
up and Colton was placed on my chest where he nursed immediately despite my
shaking from coming off the meds. The
kid was gonna eat no matter what. I
couldn’t believe my little boy was finally here. While so much of Colton’s birth was
unexpected, the drama and fright were worth the cost of meeting our precious
boy.
Whew--that's quite the story, Noelle. Much different, with the details included, than the Facebook portrayal. I'm grateful it had such a happy ending. :) ♥
ReplyDelete