Friday, December 6, 2013
How do we do it?
I'm convinced that we're in the middle of what some moms call a "wonder week." More whining. Less sleeping. Some growing, some teething, learning new skills. It's all tough on their little bodies. But it's tough on our bodies too.
It's pretty routine for me to wake up and my very first thought is not "what a beautiful day to be alive" (although, it should be, and I have so much to be thankful for). But instead I immediately ask myself what I have going on, and maybe I should cancel everything and hide in bed. I've been a mom long enough now that blaming things on hormones seems rather passe, so instead I find myself sarcastic and exhausted.
Then I look at this photo from this morning. I see my son. Wide mouthed. Clinging to my shirt. Who am I kidding. He is so worth all this. I must go on.
My friend called me on her one free moment yesterday (new mother of two... we mostly text and show our love through emodicons these days). She reminded me that I did not possess this capacity to love this human sacrificially until he was here. And then, God granted it. Now I can extend it. We laughed thinking about "all of His children" that He loves so fully and perfectly. And we struggle to stay awake without coffee. Ha.
So thank you God, for knowing what I can handle. After a difficult week, my son graced me with a three hour nap window to shower, shave, fold laundry and write. And thank you friend, for the phone call. And thank you son, for being an amazing growing and changing child. I may be tired, but I'm not going anywhere.